I'm Alive!

It's amazing to feel alive! I feel it from time to time between bouts of being mundane. When I say feel alive I mean truly alive, in the throws of feeling above and beyond the chemical interactions that make up my body. It is a transcendent feeling, and I hope everyone can feel it in their lifetime. It drives me to write and create, to stop and feel my soul, a taut string running through my body. I have trouble explaining it, In my mind I'm somewhere else. There's a glorious storm in full deluge and the wind whips at tall grass around me, there's a single tree in the field and I'm standing under it eyes closed feeling the storm winds and rain. I believe at some level it's a connection to the divine, a harmonic resonance between myself and the universe. It feels like the universe is running through my head and paralyzing me. My lack of direction while writing this is due completely to this feeling of being alive. Again in my head I'm somewhere else no longer at my desk typing, I'm standing tall against insurmountable odds declaring proudly "I AM ALIVE!" knowing that no matter what happens I have lived and felt alive and that's all that matters in the moment. It drowns out the rest of life the bills, the work that needs to get done, the worries of the day all pale in comparison to this feeling of being alive. I can't fully explain this feeling, but it is glorious. Frequently I have to stop writing because the feeling overwhelms and demands my full attention. When it has subsided it leaves peace in its wake a sense of calm and reverence. I see the rain outside and my spirit soars, caught on the winds of life and beauty. Something about the rain brings this feeling on more than anything else. Rain is, to me, one of the most beautiful things. Rain is a multi-sensory concert. It plays a beautiful rhythm on every surface as it falls from the clouds and slides down your skin in loving trickles. Rain brings all the beautiful earthy smells of nature into stark clarity and wraps you in winds as it simultaneously nurtures everything. Rain amazes me and storms are a magnitude above and beyond even what I've written here.